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nuked my inbox.
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actually, i had a dream about that last night, so i figured i might as well go through with it.
'm probably gonna clear out some of my watch list and then start uploading some new shit.
maybe.
[ almost want to get back into rping, but maybe not. ]
'm probably gonna clear out some of my watch list and then start uploading some new shit.
maybe.
[ almost want to get back into rping, but maybe not. ]
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kinda want to return here?
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haven't been around for a while.
my inbox is slowly flooding with more shit i'm unlikely to ever look at.
somewhat tempted to come back to dA though, clear all of the shit in my inbox out and start posting again.
[ alternately, nuke this account and start a new one—except mllenightingale's my name everywhere, so that's probably out. ]
my inbox is slowly flooding with more shit i'm unlikely to ever look at.
somewhat tempted to come back to dA though, clear all of the shit in my inbox out and start posting again.
[ alternately, nuke this account and start a new one—except mllenightingale's my name everywhere, so that's probably out. ]
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I'm a shitty person.
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[ And if anybody tries to say otherwise, I'm just gonna stare at you like you're a dumbass. ]
So this is my confession of sorts, I guess. Not that it's anything new for long-time watchers.
Over a year ago, now, it was close to my friend's birthday. I had no points, but wanted to get her a premium. So I opened commissions.
Now, as anybody who's known me from more than a few comment conversations has probably noticed, I am absolutely terrible with priorities. I overestimate my ability to churn out products, then proceed to sign myself up for even more activities requiring my time and effort after I've had the freakout about shit shit shit I can't finish this in time.
It's been over a year; there are commissions, half paid-for that I still haven't finished. [ I'm not too sure what to do about that. If I were to be completely honest, I think the commissioners have likely forgotten that they'd even commissioned me. ]
And isn't that another great excuse to not try to make up for putting all of that off.
[ I want to finish those eventually. And there's that eventually — because now that I look at things, there's so much that it's piled up around me and I don't know what the fuck to tackle first and activities that I started for fun seem more of a chore, but everywhere I look there's people attached and I don't want to have to apologize to more people for sorry, I was a moronic fuckass who can't handle more than a few tasks at a time and bit off way more than I could chew. If that actually happens, maybe add some sort of extra "bonus" drawing — sorry for taking one whole fucking year for everything. ]
Mind, I never charged a lot. Maybe a handful of cents in real money, nothing much over a few tens of points, but that's an obvious excuse because the problem isn't how much was paid but whether or not the entire transaction was fulfilled. [ What's this, bad attempts at PR/self-defense or something? Fuck me. ]
Oh, and let's not forget — there's also a Secret Santa from last year that I never finished. [ I want to, but I don't know if it'd be worse if I came to the recipient with it a year late or just acted as though I've forgotten it altogether. ] I think I've been avoiding that person for the entire last year out of something— guilt or fear of discovery, who knows.
I suppose I'm kinda asking for advice about how to handle the situation, or just apologizing in general. Or both. Yeah, both, in a way.
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Writing Stream: Y/N
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So I'm bored and kinda lacking in motivation, and I was wondering if anybody would be interested if I did a casual join.me for a Writer's Craft assignment? If I did, it would likely be in around an hour and a half, after I finish my Physics homework uvu
[ If nobody comments, I'll just forget about it. ]
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Anyone watch Firefly?
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My Media Studies teacher mentioned it to me a few days ago and since I've been meaning to watch it for a while, I finally did.
Well fuck.
I just finished Serenity and oh god I was crying at the end and no I am just going to go on and deny that entire fucking movie happened or at least the second half because nothing is okay was wondering if anybody else here's watched it.
[ And if you haven't, you totally should. ]
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